{"id":15676,"date":"2013-08-16T09:41:03","date_gmt":"2013-08-16T09:41:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/?p=15676"},"modified":"2013-08-16T09:41:05","modified_gmt":"2013-08-16T09:41:05","slug":"the-skin-im-in","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/?p=15676","title":{"rendered":"The Skin I&#8217;m In"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/08\/20130816-022101.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/08\/20130816-022101.jpg\" alt=\"20130816-022101.jpg\" class=\"alignnone size-full\" \/><\/a><br \/>\nYesterday I told my husband, &#8220;I love my body.&#8221;<br \/>\nAnd I do.<br \/>\nI love what my body does.<br \/>\nI love being strong and capable.  I love running.  I love being able to run and run and run without stopping.  I like being able to stand like a flamingo and tie my shoe without losing my balance.  I like the muscles I&#8217;m seeing popping up through my flesh, reminding me they&#8217;re there, encouraging me to keep working.  I like being able to go to quiet places in the mountains, losing myself in the beauty of it all, available only because I can walk.  I love that I can breathe deep, catch my breath and keep going. I love my balance.  I love going to the zoo and not getting tired.  I love walking down a hill and not freaking out that I&#8217;m going to have to walk back up it.  I love being able to carry my kids, on my hip, on my back- it doesn&#8217;t matter.  I&#8217;m just glad I didn&#8217;t miss out on carrying them around.<br \/>\nI have gratitude for my body that I&#8217;ve never had before.  I marvel at it, what it can do, what I can force it to do.  I love that it is plastic, moldable, shapeable into the kind of body I want.  I like that I can challenge my body to be healthier, better, more resilient.<br \/>\nI have reverence for myself.  I know that I&#8217;m brief, youth is fleeting and this body is giving me everything it has.  I understand now that my body will do whatever I want it to, I just have to respect it enough to make the right choices.<br \/>\nIt surprises me to learn that I can love this part of my body to clearly, but my insecurities over being a non-standardly attractive woman have completely overshadowed my ability to appreciate even this one, compartmentalized version of myself.  No matter what I look like, I can always be strong, capable and healthy.  Focus there, right?<br \/>\nI love my body.<br \/>\nPerhaps not in the way that we typically desire, but I&#8217;m on my way there.  And in the meantime, what I do love about my body is fabulous.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Yesterday I told my husband, &#8220;I love my body.&#8221; And I do. I love what my body does. I love being strong and capable. I love running. I love being able to run and run and run without stopping. I like being able to stand like a flamingo and tie my shoe without losing my &#8230; <span class=\"more\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/?p=15676\">[Read more&#8230;]<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["entry","post","publish","author-littlejohnt","post-15676","format-standard","category-diary"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15676","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=15676"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15676\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15677,"href":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15676\/revisions\/15677"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=15676"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=15676"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.littlejohnesque.com\/shazam\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=15676"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}